she may live finely
inside this structure
but she is wild outdoors
outside
elegant to a fault
paws, whiskers and tail
perfection
outside she sprints
she pounces
she lunges
after birds
after squirrels
after a butterfly
inside she grooms
she struts
she purrs
on her tower
on marble floors
to your touch
there is a contrast
so fine
so feline
grace like this
is beauty's
core
element
Today I'm allowed to
feel
sad
to feel
OVERWHELMED
to feel
blue
like the colour of
the sky
behind a rain cloud
like cold rain
on the back of my neck
falling like my tears
like I've lost something
someone
some time
today
I'm allowed
to feel like icicles
melting
breaking off the roof
shattering on the cement
to feel like bedtime
can't come early enough
like I could fall asleep
crying
to be so confused
I couldn't even handle
the truth
today I'm allowed
to feel like my letter
was lost in the mail
a painting of You
never to be seen again
to feel like my watch
can't tell time
time can't move this slow
can it?
today
I'm allowed
to feel like
Oscar
in with the garbage
to feel like I am
a micro-hearted Grinch
it's not Christmas yet right?
to feel like I came
fourth
no medal
no badge
but oh so close
Today
I
am
allowed
to be so confused
I don't even want to know the truth
in case
it hurts.
You know
Without knowing
I know
I know nothing